While death leaves a heartache only time can heal;
it is love that leaves the memories time will never steal...
Brutus is never far from my thoughts, no matter
how busy nor how tired I am. Right now he is
even more so. November 5th will be 4 years since
our Brutus died. For me it is always worse the
days/weeks before. My mind replays it all.
Today my mind is buzzing with what happened 4 years ago,
and yes I am heartbroken all over again. Combined with
the way Shadow died and some additional information I just
learnt about Shadow's last hours, I am sad. Very sad.
I know it will get better as the day progresses.
It always does. Sniff is always right next to me and he's
very alive and lovable. He's my little boy and he makes
me happy, but in my heart there stirs a quiet pain.
The tears in my eyes I can wipe away.
The ache in my heart will always stay...
~Nadiya~
