Oct 22, 2019

If Tomorrow Never Comes... Thinking Of You Brutus ~

Memories are bullets. Some whiz by and only spook you. 
Others tear you open and leave you in pieces...

November 5th will be 4 years since 
Brutus died. I'm having "panic" attacks.  It's been 
going on for some days now.    I know it's because I think 
about it too much, but Brutus was my life, and
 when he died a part of me died as well.


November 4th 2015
You know how they say that sometimes all it takes 
is a song, a smell, a picture, a little something to 
start a flood of memories you once thought
 tucked away somewhere deep in you.

 Last night, all it took was this song to transport
 me to another place another time.  As they say,
 "Every man's memory is his private literature. " 



The song was sang in Americas Got Talent,
 and there was not a single dried eye in the audience.
 Had to do with the man singing it, and with the emotions 
that were involved.  Even if you are not into Country music,
 this song would have pulled deeply on something in you.
  It did that to me.  Even Arvid was not dry eyed!


If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes


Here is the original version performed by Garth Brooks.

It's not for everyone maybe, but I loved it.
  Memories are what warm you up from the
 inside. But they're also what tear you apart.

Another day and I'm grateful for it.  Some days 
are more difficult that others, but it's called life 
and life is not always the way we want it to be. 


 That being said, I am always grateful for Arvid, Sniff,
 my family, friends,  and all the blessings I know I have in life.

Remembering is easy. 
It's forgetting that's hard...

~Nadiya~