You can break down and cry, but you have to
get back up and start living again, because life goes on.
In three words I can sum up everything
I’ve learned about life. It goes on...
Ever since leaving Branson I have been sad. Sad
because I left behind so much. I who am never attached
to any place became very attached to home in Branson,
and to the people. I know it will be better, but right
now I am missing a very important part of my life.
I had purpose and I had a place to go everyday.
Now Arvid and I are always together. We do everything
together. Not bad, but I was used to running a business
all by myself. I feel a void, and though I know it will
be better, for now I am adjusting all over again.
Florida is beautiful. The scenery, everything about it is
so different than Branson, yet I miss Branson. I miss
home very much. I do not feel at home right now. How
strange. My day brightens up when a tenant texts or
calls me. Then I feel alive again. I feel connected.
I know it will get better. It always does. We move
from place to place all the time. Moving to Chicago
was not something I wanted. It’s what Arvid wanted.
It’s a beautiful city. I love it. I just was not ready
for another apartment there. But Arvid is happy.
We have been busy in Fort Lauderdale. We brought
back a lot of “crap” stuff with us. Two cars filled so
now it’s a mess all over again, but getting organized
little by little. Sniff is doing better. Adjusting just
like me. Arvid is happy and fully adjusted.
We do take time to do a few fun things. Checked
out the neighborhood again and even some of downtown.
As I mentioned the downtown area is being built up like crazy.
Interesting to see what our old stomping grounds looks like.
The weather is great, a bit hot but good.
Scenery is pretty and life goes on. I have to remind
myself once in a while that starting today, I need
to forget what’s gone, appreciate what still remains,
and look forward to what’s coming next.
Life is like a road, there are bumps,
there are cracks, there are roadblocks, but the
only important thing is that it keeps going...
~Nadiya~
