I've been counting down the days for this.
Now it's almost here. I'm loving it...
Now it's almost here. I'm loving it...
When we came here in January, it was extremely traumatic for me.
Everything brought back memories of Brutus and Shadow in spades.
This time it has been "easier" I was let's say "better" prepared.
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| ~Florida Living~ |
I am missing the sounds of little footsteps. I am missing
Sniff Sniff. Yes, the little paw prints are missing.
Both Arvid and I feel it, but we don't talk too much about it.
This time, together with thinking and missing Brutus, I am also missing
our Sniff Sniff very much. This place will never be my home
again until Sniff is here with us. That being said i miss
home and I am ready to go back home to Branson.
The other day I worked up the courage to throw away all
of Brutus' pills, and yes Shadow's as well. Little Shadow had
allergies and I still had creams and ointments he was taking.
It was not easy for me, but it was definitely necessary. As I threw
away Brutus' pills I couldn't help but cry and scream. So many pills
were left. I used to give it to him 3 times a day. He hated it
as much as I hated to give it to him. My little Brutus.
I cannot yet admit that Brutus is better off. I just can't. I am glad he
no longer has to go through the trauma of taking pills and going to
doctors all the time. But by admitting that, I am acknowledging that
Brutus is better off. I just know that life has not been easy for me since
he died. Of course now with Sniff it is better and better everyday,
but my Brutus stole my heart and part of my soul is with him.
Right now I just can't wait to get home to Sniff. All I do is pace
around and count the hours until we leave. This is no longer
home for me. The day Sniff, Arvid and I come back
to Florida together only then it will be home again.
It's already Thursday. Not that much more until we go home.
Today should be good. Will be keeping myself a little busy
preparing for Victoria and Michael. Always good times
with them and in that sense, it's going to be a good day.
Happy Thursday all. Soon it will be Saturday!
Can't wait. Happy Thursday. P.S. It's almost Friday...
Always find time for the things
that make you happy to be alive...
~Nadiya~
I cannot yet admit that Brutus is better off. I just can't. I am glad he
no longer has to go through the trauma of taking pills and going to
doctors all the time. But by admitting that, I am acknowledging that
Brutus is better off. I just know that life has not been easy for me since
he died. Of course now with Sniff it is better and better everyday,
but my Brutus stole my heart and part of my soul is with him.
Right now I just can't wait to get home to Sniff. All I do is pace
around and count the hours until we leave. This is no longer
home for me. The day Sniff, Arvid and I come back
to Florida together only then it will be home again.
It's already Thursday. Not that much more until we go home.
Today should be good. Will be keeping myself a little busy
preparing for Victoria and Michael. Always good times
with them and in that sense, it's going to be a good day.
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| Will miss the views from our balcony |
Can't wait. Happy Thursday. P.S. It's almost Friday...
that make you happy to be alive...
~Nadiya~
