Finding yourself consists of peeling off years of social conditioning
to find a self as it existed during childhood, un-masked....
to find a self as it existed during childhood, un-masked....
I have decided to take a "vacation" from Facebook. It has become too much work lately.
It is always the same old, same old, and I am tired of it. Arvid for one is always telling
me to do so and finally I came to that conclusion on my own.
It's the same everyday. Millions of pictures of people doing this or doing that and
sometimes I feel as if I have to hit the "like" button just because. I'm tired.
I don't need to see what someone does at every minute of the day. I don't need to know
what you ate for lunch, I don't need to know anything really. Right now i feel this way. I
guess I am in a little slump. Have had a good day, but suddenly it changed.
Facebook has this way of reminding you of what happened on this same day a year ago,
two years ago and so forth. My memories are always with Brutus and it is just too painful.
Just when i think the day will go smoothly a memory will pop up and it sets me back.
Arvid is not that interested in anything on FB. Says he does not care what so and so is doing.
"None of my business. I have better things to do with my time." That's Arvid.
We see our grand kids on Skype every week, Arvid talks to his family every Sunday.
And I am in touch with my family daily. So all important bases are covered.
I am still on messenger, Whatsapp, email, text, Snapchat and god know what else.
The point is if someone needs to get hold of me, there are many ways to do so.
Right now I need to come to terms with the turmoil I am living. I really don't
have the time to waste nor do I feel the need to. May you all have wonderful vacations,
delicious lunches, wonderful cruises, and whatever else it is you do.
One day when I feel better I will once again be ready to participate in the "nonsense"
of Facebook. I will be able to see the the fakeness of everyday life again through the eyes
of social media without getting upset nor wondering how people can be so superficial.
I will be able to understand once again that people just mean well even if it's all a lie.
For now i wish you all better times than what i am experiencing. Life
sometimes does not go according to how we want it, but we do the best we can and we
take it one day at a time. One day it will be better. I am looking forward to that day.
You have to fight some very bad days to earn some of the best days
of your life. Either you run the day or the day runs you..
~Nadiya~
