Tears In Heaven....

 Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.  I miss you like hell...... 

A few days ago one of my facebook friends published something very sad.   This was her status:

our precious little angel didn't get to spend time with us but she was needed more by the Almighty Father where she will be safe and looked after...:( R.I.P. Baby Arianna)

I cannot even bring myself to imagine what her parents must be going through.  Can you imagine carrying a baby for nine months, loving that child, feeling that baby grow inside of you and waiting for the day you will cradle he or she in your arms and welcome them into this world with a huge smile that will never end?

I have never had the pleasure of being a mom but all my heart and all my emotions are screaming that this is so wrong, this is not fair. 

During this time all your friends and family are trying to do everything to be as nice as possible and I will say from previous experience this is greatly appreciated but, people who have never experienced loss no matter how hard they try cannot relate to what is really going on.  It is not that they are insensitive it is just that they do not know and cannot imagine the heartache going on right now in these parents' hearts.  Their world is probably crumbling and there is nothing they can do to bring their baby back nothing and this is probably what is killing them:(

When my first husband died everyone said god needed him more than I did...to this day I will say this is not true. I needed him more than god...life is not fair there is no reason for something so tragic and if there is I can't see it...so when someone says god needed that little girl in heaven my question is WHY???WHY??  That little girl is needed by her parents more than anyone in this world...When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.

When my first husband died my sister-in-law sang this beautiful song by Eric Clapton at his funeral.  To this day I cannot hear this song without bursting in tears...For some moments in life there are no words.

To baby Arianna and her parents:

Tears In Heaven

Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the same

If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong

And carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong

Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand

If I saw you in heaven?

Would you help me stand

If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way

Through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay

Here in heaven

Time can bring you down

Time can bend your knees

Time can break your heart

Have you begging please

Begging please

Beyond the door

There's peace, I'm sure

And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the same

If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong

And carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

'Cause I know I don't belong

Here in heaven

Anyone who has experienced the loss of a loved one knows that the pain never goes away but time makes it more bearable....Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, may looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow....

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal...To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die...

until next time...