Lfe Goes On.....

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on....

As I wrote not so long ago my grandmother died this past March. 

http://www.nadiyahvidsten.com/2010/03/final-goodbye-to-grandma.html 

As her gran daughter her death touched me deeply and left a sadness in my heart.  When I think of her the sadness returns and a flood of memories take over....Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us....but I will be honest and admit that with all the craziness of my own life these moments are not that frequent.....life goes on be it for good or for whatever reason we just do not spend too much time dwelling on things.

My mom on the other hand spends a lot of her time thinking of her mother.  I never realized how much my mom actually misses her mother until a few days ago when she sent me an email.  A very simple email but by reading it I realized that the void in her heart will never be filled no matter how much life goes on.

All her email said was "Nad I still miss ma on a daily basis even though she was so far away, children change but a mother never changes no matter how old her children are......Sometimes I wonder about all our grand kids.  Sometimes I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP". My mom also said that it does not matter how old you are....no one can ever replace your mother.

Sometimes I may take my mom for granted but I really hope this is not the case.  She is an exceptional woman and when I read her email I felt the sadness in her heart and I wondered how I would cope one day when I no longer have my mom.  Hopefully that will be years and years from today. As someone once said "my mom is a neverending song in my heart of comfort, happiness, and being.  I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune".

Mommy, I am so sorry I have not spent more time inquiring how you feel and asking you more about Ma.  I know you spoke with her almost everyday and that was a good time for both of you....I know you miss her terribly and that sometimes you wish you could just pick up that phone and hear her voice...just like when I am having a bad or good day the person  look forward to telling it all to is you.  Your patience is unending and I want to say thank you.....you are the first person to know things we do not really tell anyone else :)......your input is always appreciated.

No one in the world can take the place of your mother.  Right or wrong, from her viewpoint you are always right.  She may scold you for little things, but never for the big ones.....

Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be

until next time.....